i wish i had...

"its coming on christmas. they're cuttin down trees.
they're putting up reindeer and singing songs of joy and peace
i wish i had a river... i could skate away on.
but it dont snow here. stays pretty green.
i'm gunna make a lot of money and i'm going to quit this crazy scene.
i wish i had a river i could skate away on.
i wish i had a river so long...
i could teach my feet to fly.
i wish i had a river, i could skate away on...
... im so hard so handle.
im selfish and im sad.
now i lost the best baby i ever had..."

originally by Joni Mitchell, i think this is one of the saddest songs i know. i dont really know if it was meant to be a sad song or not.. but something about it makes me sad. maybe her voice?... but something about it gets me every time.


i hadnt heard this song for a long time, so today when i listened to it... tears just came to my eyes. i wasn't listening to the original version, but instead i heard the Herbie Hancock and Corrine Bailey Rae re-make. safe to say, Corrine does the song justice.

a couple of days ago, i did something stupid...
and i really hurt someones feelings.... someone i love above all others. <3
i overreacted... and i took words that were meant for confirmation
we're mistaken for doubt.

it was my fault.
and i caused a problem.

oh, i wish i had a river... i could skate away on.

just get away from that weird hurt i feel right now.